Note to Self | Mariah the Scientist Lyrics, Meaning & Videos

Posted by Carisa Kissane on Monday, May 20, 2024

Note to Self
Mariah the Scientist Lyrics


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I've always been, s-e-l-f-d-e-s-t-r-u-c-t-i-v-e
Can't you tell?

And they talking 'bout love, what is it?
Didn't know it existed
Now they telling me it's within myself
But, baby, what is love?

A figment? Tell me am I imagining shit?
Thinking about the lies I tell myself
I've always been

S-e-l-f d-e-s-t-r-u-c-t-i-v-e, I need help
'Cause I've always been, s-e-l-f-d-e-s-t-r-u-c-t-i-v-e
Can't you tell?
That I've always been

S-e-l-f d-e-s-t-r-u-c-t-i-v-e, I need help

'Cause I've always been, s-e-l-f-d-e-s-t-r-u-c-t-i-v-e
Can't you tell?


Overall Meaning

In this song, Mariah the Scientist expresses her personal struggles with self-destructive tendencies and the difficulties she faces in trying to comprehend and define love. The repetition of the phrase "S-e-l-f d-e-s-t-r-u-c-t-i-v-e, I need help" emphasizes the severity of her situation and the urgency for support. Mariah acknowledges that this behavior has always been a part of her identity, and questions whether or not love is real or just a concept.


Furthermore, Mariah explores the conflict between her perceived understanding of love and her own experiences. She is confused by the idea that love is something within herself when she has only known self-destructive behavior. She questions whether love is just a figment of her imagination or something she can truly experience. Mariah is torn between the lies she tells herself and the desire for genuine love, and the internal conflict leaves her feeling like she needs help.


Overall, the lyrics of "Note to Self" shed light on the complexities of mental health, self-discovery, and understanding love. The song portrays a deeply personal and introspective message that highlights Mariah’s vulnerability and encourages listeners to reflect on their own struggles with self-destructive tendencies and self-love.


Line by Line Meaning

S-e-l-f d-e-s-t-r-u-c-t-i-v-e, I need help
I have noticed that I am self-destructive and I am seeking assistance.


I've always been, s-e-l-f-d-e-s-t-r-u-c-t-i-v-e
My self-destructive behavior has been persistent.


Can't you tell?
I am wondering if others have noticed my self-destructive tendencies.


And they talking 'bout love, what is it?
Others speak of love, but I am unsure of its meaning.


Didn't know it existed
I have not experienced true love before.


Now they telling me it's within myself
People are telling me that love originates from within.


But, baby, what is love?
I am still uncertain about what love really is.


A figment? Tell me am I imagining shit?
I wonder if love is just a made-up concept and if I am being delusional.


Thinking about the lies I tell myself
I am reflecting on the false narratives that I have created for myself.


I've always been
My self-destructive behavior has been present throughout my life.


S-e-l-f d-e-s-t-r-u-c-t-i-v-e, I need help
I am acknowledging my self-destructive tendencies and admitting that I require assistance.


'Cause I've always been, s-e-l-f-d-e-s-t-r-u-c-t-i-v-e
My self-destructive behavior has been a part of me for some time.


Can't you tell?
I am still questioning if others can perceive my self-destructive tendencies.


Writer(s): Daniel Gonzalez, Mariah Buckles

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